Friday, April 10, 2009

Good Friday. My week in recap or The Passion of the Bob..

Ok usually I post some religious reflectional stuff today ... I'll just save it for Easter...

I'm into the Patriot and should be entered into the Griskus by Monday so my race schedule is more or less complete. The tri club paid my entry into those races so I'll just save what I was planning on spending on big toe nail+ arm = money in the bank. I'm trying to control my competitive side which wants to go out a it all for Providence...if I make Kona great... if not well...there are worse tragedies in the world...I just don't want to end up with the Moonlight Graham deal from Field of Dreams...come so close to my dream and never achieve it, granted becoming a Doctor with a moderately successful prcatice doesn't sound too unappealing...hell that's my career goal.
70 sec. last year at Eagleman...Had I not bobbled in T-1, not had to pee in T-2, hadn't dumped my water bottles with 5 miles to go on the bike, Had I tried sneaking into the Y for 2-3 more swim workouts... had I saved a little more, or sold some more stuff, had a better mental mindset,what ifs, maybes, would be nices...I really hope that when I'm 40 I won't be saying the closest I ever got to Kona was a measly 70 sec. away from the roll down at Eagleman when I was 23. That hopefully at that point I'll have my life figured out.. a stable and profitable career, and a couple of Kona and Boston Marathon finishes under my belt would be nice too. I find myself reflecting on Macca's article in Triathlete. He said he was worried about us young guys. Especially since all the young pros seem to be all about money and not about passion. Right now I'm racing for passion and seriously if I was told tomorrow that I could race without having to worry about the bills I would in a heartbeat...until then I'm going to continue to race at the best level I can. Why because I love it...someweeks knowing that part of my check is going to a race entry is what gets me through the week where the normal responses to" Hi how are you?" is " Cash Large Bills" Or " Overdraft! Do you know who I AM?" or the all too typical " Just another day in Hell." just knowing that I will compete in X months/days gets me through the tedium, and just what seems to be a vaccum of negativity. Racing is my passion I do it for nothing...I love it to me, well it's life. Sometimes I can get just a tad bit annoying but this sport is what I do, it's the first sport that I've had pretty steady success....and I want to see how deep this rabbit hole goes.

I'm taking one of my sister's friends to her commencemet ball at Salve on May 14, granted I have to be at work for 11am the next morning so this is going to be fun. ( I was intially hoping to take the following day off but someone beat me to the punch.) I figure leave the dance @ 1AM and try to drive back. I was intially hoping to stay the night but I-95 blows during rush hour so I'm figuring my drive back immediately plan might be the most fatiguing yet most time saving. Worst case I'll just pack my work clothes with me...or better yet show up to work in a Tux...maybe we could say it's part of a promotion...take out a credit card/home loan and live like a high roller...wait isn't that how we ended up in a financial crisis?

All right that's all my ranting on that.

My thesis is coming along things are getting ironed out it's looking like I should graduate in May...I'm probably going to take some Community College or Continuing Ed courses this fall to keep my loans on differement and get myself medical school ready before I apply to a Post Bacc Program in the fall for the Spring...start looking for a second job or a better paying one... although I can't really gripe with my current one other than I need to start making more...hence I need to either move up or double/triple/quadruple up. Having a living wage paying gig with steady hours and weekends off sounds tempting....if only there are any still out there.
My rant on that done.

On the training front I managed 7000 yds. so far this week, the Y closes early tonight...seriously who closes early on Good Friday anymore? So there will be no afterwork swim session for me...but I plan on running today and tomorrow...despite the rain and gale force winds. Maybe swim tomorrow after work.
Sunday if I can sneak out of dinner early I'm hoping to ride...worst case it will be an evening trainer session.

Well that was this hectic week in the life of Bob-o.



MaineSport said...

I know what you mean about just missing a spot. 45 seconds at USAT's last year kept me from going to Australia. That hurts...and is motivation to keep going.

BreeWee said...

BOB! Nice week, and yes, let it all be motivation, keep it up buddy! Hope you got to sneak outta dinner early and avoided the trainer...

YES! Can hardly wait to meet ya at Rev3!! Happy Easter!

Mr. Satan A. Chilles said...

Kona is like Boston, you'll qualify when you least expect it, and probably won't know when you're doing it.

That's what happened to me when I qualified for Boston, I found out days after I crossed the finish line. I had long since given up trying. So train like your going to qualify and stop thinking about it during the race. Easy to say, hard to do, but get out there and get it done. You'll do it.

iron-boyer said...

nice post...I like your spirit. I gotta tell you...I look up to your motivation and passion so keep it going. Eventually you will qualify...and maybe it's gonna be a season where I make it too.